The Music Of My Soul

Mother's Blooper

2009-04-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

My mother asked me to book her a flight to Iloilo this April. I texted her informing that I will book her in PAL instead of Cebu Pacific for cheaper rates then I called her after the text to discuss matters clearer.

Me: Mommy, sa PAL na kita ibo-book kasi mas mura dun lumalabas kesa sa Cebu Pacific.

Mother: Ay, hindi ako sa Cebu pupunta, sa Iloilo!

Me: Ah Mommy, Cebu Pacific yung sinasabi ko, yung eroplano.

Hehe, si Mother talaga! Marami pa syang ganyang kwento. hehe!

My Heart is Yours

2009-03-28T12:53:00.000+08:00

I began to like Paramore because of this song which made me realize whom my heart really belongs to...

My Heart
Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to You
We could sing our own but what would it be without You?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to You
We could sing our own but what would it be without You?

This heart, it beats, beats for only You
This heart, it beats, beats for only You

This heart, it beats, beats for only You
My heart is Yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only You
My heart is Yours
(My heart, it beats for You)

This heart, it beats, beats for only You (It beats, beats for only You)
My heart is Yours (My heart is Yours)

This heart, it beats, beats for only You (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is Yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is Yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is Yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

Thank You, Thank You

2009-03-27T18:40:00.000+08:00

Kate, for having faith in me when I was in the midst of questioning my own abilities, for cheering me with "Go!", for feeling even more excited than me and for the encouraging text this morning.

Kitty, for leaving me with the words "I'm proud of you" before I left the office yesterday.

You both inspired me. Super big thanks!

Argggh Happens

2009-03-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

I was just waiting for the clock to hit 6:00 PM so I can get ready to leave the office and be bound for home in Nueva Ecija (yes, I'm on leave tomorrow). At 5:30, requests came from our big boss. And until now, I'm still here in the office. Oh well, that's life. See you tomorrow home.

*Had I been able to leave at 6:00 PM, I should've been lying down in our bed at home 200+ kilometers from where I am right now. *sigh*

Kaadikan

2009-02-20T13:27:00.000+08:00

I need a dose of Dashboard Confessional and Paramore plus electric guitar, bass guitar and drums. Solb na! Hay, kelan kaya? I feel anxious na.

Delirious? The Farewell Tour

2009-02-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

I want! I want!

* Curious lang, bakit kaya farewell na?

Twilight OST

2009-02-07T08:09:00.000+08:00

Listened to Twilight OST and I didn't like it. Maybe because I heard so much digital mixing or mastering whatsoever. I've always loved hearing a song's drumbeat, guitar plucks or strums, the bass or the other musical instruments that accompany it which turned out quite rare in the soundtrack. And some of the songs sounded like "disco" songs from the 70's or 80's. Hehe! But there are a few that I liked and these are Paramore's "Decode" and "I Caught Myself", Iron & Wine's "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" and my favorite from Linkin Park, "Leave Out All the Rest".

When I heard the song, I asked myself, "Is it really Linkin Park singing?" No growling and screaming and the music is not loud. It sounded a little more mainstream but I enjoyed it. Loved the lyrics too.

Leave Out All the Rest
Linkin Park

I dreamt I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving?
When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me I want you to know

Chorus:
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

Chorus:
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Chorus:
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

3EB

2009-01-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

Jumper
Third Eye Blind

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand.

The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong

Well everyone I know has got a reason, to say
Put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies
That you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand.

And well he's on the table
And he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they are doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know

Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
We can put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies,
That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again,
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand

(I would understand)
(I would understand)
(Understand)

Ya ya ya ya ya...

Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend)
I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend)
And I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend)
I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend)
And I would understand.

Tingalingaling # 2

2009-01-31T17:11:00.000+08:00

We ought to think with our minds and NOT with our hearts...

Lately...

2009-01-28T17:55:00.000+08:00

...I learned/discovered/noted that:

I really, really love shopping alone – my new “me” time (if I still have resources..hehe!)
I have spent a lot on shopping. Huhu!
I no longer go out without putting some blushes and lip tint. Anlandi! Hahaha!
Watching movies alone is enjoyable. I love it and I’m gonna do it more often.
I’m really not a fan of texting which explains why I seldom or never at all reply to messages.
I love listening to Pastor Peter Tan-chi. I get rebuked. And it feels good.
Coffee Bean at Paseo Center is a perfect place to hang out especially at night.
I have become less emotional
I want dark brown hair
I want a piercing on my right earlobe
Jogging should be done in proper pacing and on a regular basis (say, every week) unless you want all of your muscles and joints to ache excruciatingly for a day or 2!
I’m losing weight according to a number of people (iba-ibang tao nagsabi nito ah! )
I really wanna go to the gym not only to be physically fit but also to have something new to do.
We should learn to say NO on certain things.
I’m a silent type of person (walang aangal! Haha!)
I get so lazy to talk
I have this minor (I think) disease. Argh.
There’s an acoustic bass at Lyric in Megamall! Yey!

Motto for 2009

2009-01-23T06:56:00.000+08:00

Dahil walang katapusan ang pag-iisip ng kung ano-anong motto for 2009 tuwing lunchtime, meron na din ako na inimbento ni Tria.

"If you feel bad on the inside, feel good on the outside"

Alavet! Hahaha!

Cheers!

2009-01-22T16:04:00.000+08:00

I almost forgot that yesterday was my 1st year in Starcom until Kate and Jez “surprised” me with a slice of someone else’s birthday cake that Shey was able to get grab somewhere. That was so sweet of you girls! Hehe! Was touched. I really appreciate it. (Though I would appreciate it more if it were a whole blueberry cheesecake! Hehe! jowk! )

So it has been a year since I survived the three-week period of “hell” in my life. As I always put it, “nung niyurakan ang aking pagkatao”. Hehe! I won’t get into details of that "tragic" event, they're too hot to handle. Haha! Thank God that was over.

Moving forward, I’m more than happy with my life now vis-à-vis my work in terms of workload, working hours (yah, no more OT-to-death, series of overnights and over-weekend. Hehe! Weee! ), salary (? yup, fair enough, I think. Hehe!), and the work environment especially the people I regularly spend my Monday to Friday with. I found not only good colleagues but new genuine friends as well.

I particularly would like to give my biggest hugs to my "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants". You, girls, are one of the best things that happened to me ~~in Starcom~~ in 2008. You already know why. Thank you very, very much. *teary-eyed. Haha! * Emo, emo! hahaha!

Cheers to success in every aspect of our lives and to longer friendship!

Just Want to Say...

2009-01-04T05:04:00.000+08:00

ang KAPAL MO! If you think you can fool me or play with me, I'm sorry you're wrong. Sana nag-isip ka muna bago mo ginawa yun. Tsk, tsk.

Hay, New year na New Year...Tsk, tsk.

Dahil New Year... Part 2

2009-01-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

Isa pa!

1. You're thinking about someone, aren't you?
- yes

2. Does the last person you kissed hate you? Why?
- no, my nephew loves me! :)

3. What does your hair look like?
- it's shorter now and has dark brown color that wears off after sometime

4. What would you do if your best friend of the opposite sex liked you?
- nothing especially if I don't like him back :D

5. How many people do you trust?
- very few

6. Why did your last relationship end?
- it's a secret I'll never tell...xoxo..haha!

7. Are you happy with your life?
- yes

8. If you could go back in time, would you?
- yup, I want to find out what could have happened if I made another decision in major things in my life

9. How far back would you go?
- as far as the time when I already had the courage to decide on my own ;)

10. This time last year, do you remember who you were dating or who you liked?
- of course, it's the same person I'm with now and more than three years back

11. Last thing you did before bed last night?
- net surfing

12. Ever liked anyone on your top friends?
- hmmm

13. Anything bothering you?
- yes

14. If you could have anything, what would it be?
- materially speaking, Olympus 1050 SW camera! haha! kidding aside, I've always wanted real joy...

15. What's your favorite place you've been to?
- my room

16. Do you go to school?
- not anymore but I want to (for master's)

17. Last time you cried?
- secret :D

18. Is green your favorite color?
- nope, blue!

19. Do you have a friend that you've known since you were little?
- of course, a lot

20. Do you have work out videos?
- none

21. Are you dating the very last person you kissed?
- the last person I kiss was my nephew!

22. Your best friend likes your last ex, you say?
- go for the gold! hahaha!

23. Do you still talk to the first person you ever made out with?
- tigilan na ang kalokohang ito! hahaha!

24. What clothes were you wearing during your last kiss?
- isa pa to! di pa clear yung question! :D

25. What hoodie did you wear last?
- light blue sweater

26. When did you last go to the beach?
- last November 21-24, 2008 in Bohol

27. Do you sleep on your stomach?
- how is it done? :D

28. Are you ticklish?
- sobra! haha!

29. How are you feeling at this very moment?
- still wide awake because of so much sleep during the day :D

30. Are you someone who worries too often?
- in some ways yes

31. What are you excited about?
- nothing really

21. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- no, probably asleep already...hehe!

22. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
- yes

23. Do you know a few people that smoke weed?
- yup, though I haven't seen firsthand

24. How long does it take you to shower?
- 20-30 minutes

25. What was last thing you drank?
- water

26. Do you judge people you don' t know?
- maybe yes at times but unconsciously

27. Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
- ay sus, do I need to name them? hehe!

28. Who was the last person you had a phone convo with?
- my dad, just a short one asking if my brother had already left the house to pick us up

29. Last person you texted?
- my brother

30. Would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
- go back. don't wanna go to work yet, huhu! :D

31. Do you have any plans tomorrow?
- yup, go back to Manila at 10 AM

32. Are you in a good mood right now?
- so-so

33. What are you listening to at the moment?
- none

34. What were you doing at midnight last night ?
- uploading Baguio pics in multiply

35. Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby?
- yup naman

36. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
- that I'm not really sure of

37. Do you believe every one deserves a second chance?
- yup but it depends...hehe!

38. How late did you stay up last night?
- 2:30 AM

39. Why?
- was uploading pics nga which took 48 years to be posted :D

40. Are you happier now? Or three months ago?
- can't really say

41. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
- travelling from north (baguio) to south (batangas) with my family :)

42. Do you like meeting new people?
- it depends on the kind of people I'm going to meet

43. Would you like to tell someone something but can't?
- yes

44. Who's your bestfriend?
- Jesus you are my Bestfriend, and You will always be ;)

45. Have you ever tried your hardest, but got disappointed in the end?
- sadly yes

46. Do you hate the last boy/girl you were talking to?
- my mom? of course not.

47. If you could work at any clothing store, which store would you pick?
- CK? :D

48. Who was the last person’s stomach you saw?
- Ptr. Jermaine! so big na! haha!

49. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
- of course

50. Who did you hug last?
- my nephews

51. Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see it?
- probably yes but I can't think of any right now

Dahil New Year...

2009-01-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

...Q & A portion tayo

1. What's your name?
- Maria Gwynna Aquino Buenavides

2. What does your friend/s call you?
- Gwynna, Gwyn/Gwen, Gwynr/Gwenner, Tinky :D

3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
- nope (whatta "duh" question :D )

4. Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
- Raissa

5. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
- hmmm...blue! :D

6. What is the wallpaper on your desktop?
- the computer I'm using has the picture of my sister-in-law and her kids

7. How many pillows on your bed?
- 2

8. Who was the last text message you sent to?
- my bro ian

9. What color is your shirt right now?
- white

10. What was the best thing that happened to you last year?
- getting a new job at the start of the year

12. Who's the fourth person on your contacts list?
- on my phone? my eldest brother gary

13. When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?
- kanina lang at ate cha's place with my church friends :)

14. What school did you attend in elementary?
- Gen. Tinio Central School

15. Do you have a crush?
- yup

16. Who was/were the last person/s that made you laugh?
- church friends :)

17. Do you like Quizons?
- what's that?

18. Who do you make fun of the most at school?
- I no longer go to school

19. What's the longest time you've ever talked on the phone?
- can't recall

20. Do you think you've gotten more handsome/pretty since grade school?
- dunno

21. Have you seen your bestfriend cry?
- I don't really have a "bestfriend" but I have seen close friends cry

23. Do you dance in the car?
- I'd rather dance on stage...haha!

24. What do you think of hunting and fishing?
- cool! ;)

25. Do you and your bestfriend act alike?
- N/A :D

26 . What is a noise that you cannot stand?
- snore!

27. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
- no

28. Are your parents in love?
- with each other? I think so cause they've been married for 37 years already. :D

29. What does your 9th txt say?
- eeeeee, ang haba eh! katamad i-type! :D but the message says options for college batch's some sort of reunion this January.

30. Who sent it?
- Chin

31. Would you rather sleep at a friend's house or have them over?
- friend's house para mas masaya :)

32. When was the last time you wrote a note, and to whom?
- can't really recall

33. Are you in love?
- yup

34. Who do you miss most?
- my Bestfriend, my Love, my Father

35. What do you smell right now?
- none

36. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
- nope

37. Who was the last person you held hands with?
- my nephew gelo :)

38. What shoes did you wear today?
- pair of chucks i borrowed from ate venus for my first driving lesson :D

39. What makes you lose your appetite?
- feeling of anxiety and anger

40. What color is your laundry basket?
- blue!

41. Last person you kissed?
- my nephew violo before i left home tonight (or last night)

42. Do you think those stores are too expensive?
- what stores?

46. Who's in your house right now?
- the whole family except for my eldest bro

45. Where are you?
- at home

47. Where did you get your last bruise from?
- can't remember

48. Where did you last go out to eat?
- McDo NLEX for breakfast

49. List three things that keeps you going in life.
- my Lord God, His love, His grace

50. Who do you miss right now?
- my Bestfriend, my Love, my Father

How Sweet :)

2008-12-29T13:34:00.000+08:00

There was less riot at home today as my 2 nephews joined the kids' Christmas Fellowship at the church. At around 2:00 PM, the phone rang with my 7-year old nephew Violo on the other line.

Me: Hello?
Violo: Hello?
Me: Violo?
Violo: Tita Gwynna!
Me: O bakit?
Violo: Nandyan ka?
Me: Oo, bakit?
Violo: Si Lolo saka si Lola?
Me: Si Lola nanonood ng TV, si Lolo lumabas. Bakit? Tapos na fellowship nyo?
Violo: Hindi pa, kumusta ko lang kayo.
Me: Ah ok.
Violo: Sige, bye!
Me: Ok, tawag ka pag susunduin na kayo ha?
Violo: Opo, babay!
Me: Bye!

Uhhhh. My sweet little nephew.

Something New

2008-12-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

Been planning to get a new haircut and this afternoon, I decided to finally have one at Bench Fix in NE Pacific Mall. First time ko sa Bench Fix and I was surprised to see na lalaki ang gugupit sa akin (based on assumption lang kasi wala naman ako nakitang indications ng pagiging bading ). So said the style that I wanted, basically layered pero shorter (and yun lang naman lagi ang gupit ko...hehe!). Tinuro pa sa akin ni hairstylist kung hanggang saan and I confirmed na ganung length nga gusto ko.

After all the trimming and cutting, I looked at my new hair on the mirror and found out na sumobra yung ikli ng gupit nya. Instead na mga 3 inches lang, 5 to 6 inches siguro yung nabawas. My long hair is gone! And kanina dito sa bahay, nung tinitingnan ko ulit yung buhok ko, I noticed na parang hindi pantay-pantay ang gupit niya. Na-sobrahan naman sa layers! Hmmm..si kuya ha! May hangover pa ata sa Christmas Party nila! Dami daw nainom eh (na-overhear ko lang sa conversation nila ng mga kasama sa salon )!

Anyhow, I'll just live with my new "short" hair. I also had it cellophaned sa salon dito sa may amin at naaliw ako sa dark brown color effect kapag may light! hehe! Ano pa kaya papagawa ko sa buhok ko? Haha, inabuso!

Miss ko na siya...

2008-12-21T08:15:00.000+08:00

March 2008, Minalungao

Missing JoC

2008-12-21T07:13:00.000+08:00

Mirrors and Smoke
Jars of Clay with Leigh Nash

I'm feeling older than my years
I'm feeling pain inside my chest
It's love that keeps me silent
It's my silence that you detest
Rivers flow into the oceans
And oceans never fill
I want to kiss your lips, but I know I never will

Love's a hard decision to risk impending choke
But love will keep you wishing
And my heart will keep me broke

I blew flowers, gave you candy to even out the guilt
I sent you greeting cards with messages that I could never write
Rivers flow into the oceans
And oceans never fill
I want to let you know me
But I know I never will

Love's a contradiction
Many mirrors and smoke
Love will keep you wishing
My heart makes me broke

You will always want me
And I'll always want to leave
Even though I cut your wounds
You still deny they're real
Rivers flow into the ocean
Oceans never fill
I want to lay my life down
But I know you never will

Love's a strange condition
With all the doubts it can invoke
Your love keeps me wishing
And my heart keeps me broke

Baby, don't you cry, 'cause I got it all figured out
You always make me sad
But that's what true love is all about
Rivers never fill the oceans
But oceans always feel
The waters reaching deep inside them
I guess they always will

Love's a constant mission to a world you never spoke
Love, it keeps you wishing
My heart, it keeps me broke

Love's a constant mission to a world you never spoke
Love, it keeps you wishing
My heart, it makes me broke

Popcorn, Popcorn!

2008-12-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

While waiting for our Christmas party pics to get uploaded, magpo-"popcorn" muna ako.

Christmas season na talaga. I can already feel the cold Christmas breeze. Grabe, sobrang lamig kaninang umaga saka nung gabi pag-uwi ko.
I'm excited na for the looooonnng Christmas break! Though wala pa naman talaga akong planong gawin nun. Hmmm...retreat, retreat!
Kept on wondering if I made the right decision...tsk.
I thank God for my beloved friends. Love na love ko kayong tatlo! I repeat, I'm okay. I'll tell you if I'm not. Makeover nyo ulit ako! haha!
Hmmm...game? Game! Ako pa?!

Yun na muna. Ako lang ata nakakaintindi ng mga pinagsusulat ko. hahaha! Popcorn nga eh! hehe!

G

2008-12-11T16:23:00.000+08:00

A Walk to Remember OST is really my favorite and Switchfoot is also one of my favorite.

* Napost ko na ata to dati but I'll post it again

You
Switchfoot

There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through
But it's not me
It's You, it's You

Sometimes ignorance rings true
But hope is not in what I know
It's not in me
It's in You, it's in You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

And I find peace when I'm confused
And I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me, Me,
In You, it's in You

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me, me,
In You, in You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

In You
In You
It's in You
It's in You

There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through
But it's not me
It's You
It's You
It's You...

To those who remembered...

2008-11-25T15:40:00.000+08:00

...those who sent me text messages, gave me a call, greeted me in person, e-mailed me, left a message or note on my webpages in multiply, friendster and PKKI youth site: I will no longer mention your names one by one but I would just like to say a BIG, BIG THANK YOU for remembering me on my 24th birthday and I want you to know that your greetings, wishes and prayers for me meant so much to me and I really, really do greatly appreciate them. Thank you endlessly. You were actually the ones who made yesterday a special day.

And to the person who is truly close to my heart since we were young, I thought you forgot my birthday. Muntik na ako magtampo 'coz I was expecting a text from you at 12MN on the 24th as you've always done and I know you are one of the few who have never missed greeting me. Thanks a lot for your friendster message, thanks you did not forget. Your "happy birthday" was one of those that I was actually waiting for. But I was surprised and saddened by your message. I was just a text a way and you did not even SMS me that you were leaving already for a year and that you'd be out of the land at the night of my birthday. :( I was planning to meet up with you pa naman, as we promised before, right? Hmmp. But then I do hope and pray you'd do great there. I'm gonna pray for you. Hay, I missed the kwento. Huhu! Just e-mail me, okay? I miss you!

Feel Ko Lang ;)

2008-11-11T13:39:00.001+08:00

1. Last person who wrote you a comment?
- Miah, churchmate

2. Last music you listened to?
- I don't know the title, some R&B song from my officemate's player

3. What is people's first impression on you?
- mahinhin daw. hahaha!

4. Do you like jellyace?
- so-so

5. Most memorable place?
- 54 mahinhin? hehe!

6. Do you read books?
- yup

7. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
- eeeee, dami! :D

8. Do you have enemies?
- none that I know of :D

9. Do you like to go out, grocery or shopping?
- yup, shopping

10. Can you dance?
- eeeeee, yes! ;)

11. Do you believe in God?
- definitely!

12. Do you like any person right now?
- yup

13. Where are you as of this moment?
- at the office :D

14. Your name spelled backwards..
- annywg

15. Where were you born?
- Cabanatuan City, Nueva Ecija

16. What is the last thing you downloaded?
- pics ata

17. Name one beautiful insect you’re afraid of?
- can't think of any

18. Do u like roller coasters?
- hihi, uu! ;)

19. Chatting with...?
- nada

20. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
- both. haha!

21. Are you shy?
- yup. hahaha! it depends. :D

22. Do you think you're popular?
- nope

23. Chips or popcorn?
- chips!

24. Are you a good cook?
- I'm afraid I'm not :D

25. Best person in the world?
- can't say

26. Have you ever broken a bone?
- other people's bone? nope. :D

27. Have you ever won a trophy?
- can't remember

28. What is your favorite pc game?
- am not really a fan of PC games

29. Do you bake cakes?
- i wish I could ;)

30. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
- my bro's medicine

31. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- ahe!

32. What's your all time favorite song ?
- ano nga ba?

34. Last song stuck in your head?
- jason mraz's i'm yours

37. Any pets?
- nada

38. Color of most clothes you own...
- don't know. I'll try sorting my clothes by color one time :D

39. Whose picture(s) do you carry in your wallet?
- joey ;)

40. What do you want now?
- go home! :D

Feel Ko Lang ;)

2008-11-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

1. Last person who wrote you a comment?
- Miah, churchmate

2. Last music you listened to?
- I don't know the title, some R&B song from my officemate's player

3. What is people's first impression on you?
- mahinhin daw. hahaha!

4. Do you like jellyace?
- so-so

5. Most memorable place?
- 54 mahinhin? hehe!

6. Do you read books?
- yup

7. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
- eeeee, dami! :D

8. Do you have enemies?
- none that I know of :D

9. Do you like to go out, grocery or shopping?
- yup, shopping

10. Can you dance?
- eeeeee, yes! ;)

11. Do you believe in God?
- definitely!

12. Do you like any person right now?
- yup

13. Where are you as of this moment?
- at the office :D

14. Your name spelled backwards..
- annywg

15. Where were you born?
- Cabanatuan City, Nueva Ecija

16. What is the last thing you downloaded?
- pics ata

17. Name one beautiful insect you’re afraid of?
- can't think of any

18. Do u like roller coasters?
- hihi, uu! ;)

19. Chatting with...?
- nada

20. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
- both. haha!

21. Are you shy?
- yup. hahaha! it depends. :D

22. Do you think you're popular?
- nope

23. Chips or popcorn?
- chips!

24. Are you a good cook?
- I'm afraid I'm not :D

25. Best person in the world?
- can't say

26. Have you ever broken a bone?
- other people's bone? nope. :D

27. Have you ever won a trophy?
- can't remember

28. What is your favorite pc game?
- am not really a fan of PC games

29. Do you bake cakes?
- i wish I could ;)

30. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
- my bro's medicine

31. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- ahe!

32. What's your all time favorite song ?
- ano nga ba?

34. Last song stuck in your head?
- jason mraz's i'm yours

37. Any pets?
- nada

38. Color of most clothes you own...
- don't know. I'll try sorting my clothes by color one time :D

39. Whose picture(s) do you carry in your wallet?
- joey ;)

40. What do you want now?
- go home! :D

To my dear friend...

2008-11-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

Nalulungkot ako for you. Nabasa ko ulit kasi e-mail mo nung Saturday. You're welcome nga pala. Hayaan mo, aaliwin at papatawanin ka ulit namin pagbalik mo. Papakainin ka namin sa Bugong. Hehe! Cheer up, friend! We're here for you!

Kanta Muna

2008-11-09T06:34:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Rye for introducing me this song. :)

I love listening to this song. The soothing melody clears my head. Richard Poon also has a rendition of this song which he also did well.

The Last Time
Eric Benet

The first time I fell in love was long ago
I didn't know how to give my love at all
The next time I settled for what felt so close
But without romance, you're never gonna fall
After everything I've learned
Now it's finally my turn.
This is the last time I'll fall in love.

The first time we walked under that starry sky,
There was a moment when everything was clear
I didn't need to ask or even wonder why
Because each question is answered when you're near
And I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds
This is the last time I'll fall in love.

Now don't hold back, just let me know
Could I be moving much too fast or way too slow
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough
As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.

This is the last time I'll fall in love
Last time I'll fall in love
The last time I'll fall in love.

What I Want for My Birthday ;)

2008-11-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

It's November already and in 23 days I'll be turning 24! Oh nooooo! I'm not yet ready to grow older.

Anyhow, so just so people who care about me would know what would make me happy, rather joyful (I like this term better ) on my birthday, I'm posting my own what-I-want-for-my-birthday list...hehe! Here it goes:

1. love
2. joy
3. peace
4. patience/longsuffering
5. kindness/meekness
6. goodness
7. faithfulness
8. gentleness
9. self-control/temperance
10. blue drumset (Pearl, Zildjian or Fernando )
11. blue electric guitar (Squier/Fender, Gibson or Yamaha )
12. blue bass guitar (Squier/Fender, Gibson or Yamaha ) OR acoustic bass
13. Adidas cross-training shoes
14. blue-grey or blue-green chucks
15. blueberry cheesecake
16. a scrapbook
17. an AVP
18. someone's used NIV or KJV Bible
19. answered prayer/s
20. 2 Jars of Clay albums -- Furthermore: From the Studio/From the Stage and Redemption Songs
21. trip to CamSur or Camiguin
22. Olympus 850 SW (blue) or 1050 SW (black)
23. aerodance class registration/monthly fee at Fitness First/Slimmers World (or any dance school )
24. prayers for me

There are some more but I just limited them to 24 which corresponds to my age on my birthday this year. And I don't wanna sound so abusive. hahaha!

To the person who always makes me smile and laugh...

2008-10-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

HaPpY BirThDaY!!!

Me loves you. So much!

Improve Your Love Relationships

2008-10-04T10:03:00.000+08:00

Just got this from the Aqua yahoogroups so I'm posting na din.

~~~

What YOU can do to improve your relationships.

Talk with your partner openly and honestly.
Don't sacrifice yourself for the relationship.
Take responsibility for your feelings.
Know you can only change yourself.
Be yourself always.
Know your intentions behind your words.
Communicate your wants and needs to your partner.
Accept them as they are.
Let go of absolute value judgments.
Drop your expectations of how they "should" be.
Listen with your whole body, mind and soul.
Express your appreciation and gratitude openly and often.
Examine your beliefs about love relationships.
Use humor to defuse difficult situations.
Examine your desire to control your partner.
Have a dialogue about your beliefs.

“Honesty can be scary but it's necessary
if you want a close intimate relationship.”

Happiness and Joy Defined

2008-09-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

Just tonight, God showed me (again) the difference between happiness and joy. I've been cautiously using these words in describing an emotion ever since I've learned about their difference. I've heard a simple yet succinct definition of the two from a Pastor at CCF that goes like this:

"Happiness depends on happenings.
Joy depends on Jesus Christ."

Yes, I personally feel the difference.

Let It Go

2008-09-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

Found this poem when I randomly checked from the influx of mails in my inbox from the Aqua Dgroup yahoogroups. I think it came from Rhyanne.

This was written by TD Jakes, an American Pastor and writer, I'm just not sure when exactly. This could serve as a strong encourage to us especially those who still couldn't loosen their grip on the things from the past that hinder them from moving forward in their lives (Bambi, I know sinabi mo tinamaan ka dito. Ako din, somehow. hehe! ). The poem deeply touched me because the words that the author wrote tell of the principles I uphold to particularly when it comes to letting go of some things from the past.

So here it goes (phrases in bold/bigger font are by the poster ):

~~~

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this!
When people can walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk to another person into staying with you,
loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you,
staying attached to you.
I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The Bible said that,
They came out from us that it might be made manifest
that they were not for us.
For had they been of us,
no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you.
And if they are not joined to you,
you can't make them stay.
Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person,
it just means that their part in the story is over.
And you've got to know when people's
part in your story is over so that you
don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something.
I've got the gift of good-bye.
It's the tenth spiritual gift,
I believe in good-bye.

It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful,
and I know whatever God means for me to have
He'll give it to me.
And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.
Stop begging people to stay.
Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something
that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,
then you need to ..LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...
LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...
LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or
talents...
LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude...
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...
LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new
level in Him...
LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...
LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help
themselves...
LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ....
LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling
yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...
LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past.
Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2008 !!!
LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then
LET IT GO!!!

"The Battle is the Lord's!"

JoC Update!

2008-09-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

From Jars of Clay's website (www.jarsofclay.com):

New Music (It's What We Do)

Hey friends -

We're proud to announce the release of our new EP Closer! Here's the scoop:

3 new songs - including the recently released as a sneak peak "Closer." A new track called "Safe to Land" and "Prisoner of Hope," which we used as end title credits to the movie "Sons of Lwala."

Also included are 2 favorites that we've reworked. "Flood" and "Lovesong for a Savior" have been given new life with this rerecording. It's something we've wanted to do for some time, to give the songs some different production, while keeping the soul of the songs we've loved for many years now. We hope you dig the re-interpretations!

Lastly, check out the art work - it's a collaboration between our fine lead singer Dan and our extremely talented friend Christy Little who worked on the artwork for the Christmas Songs album. There are many lyrical nods to the song Closer in it - we're all fans.

So - go get some new Jars music! And hang on for the full length record to release in early '09!

Weeeeeee!!!! I'm sooooooo excited!!! Really curious about the new sound of "Flood" and "Love Song for a Savior" -- two of my faves from their very first album Jars of Clay! Was actually trying to listen to the new EP songs from their myspace site but I wonder why they weren't playing. I mean I could barely hear anything. Maybe something's wrong with our net connection. I'll just retry some other time anyway.

Anyhoo, just something that made me swoon ...

Steve Mason on his guitar

* Photo taken from JoC's website

Confusionism

2008-09-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

I'm confused. I don't know which of the two will I choose. I love them them both...

Will I go for the one with a stylish, slim design that comes with my fave color and has features that the other one I'm eyeing lacks like built-in accelerometer that allows viewing of albums, pictures and videos in a "landscape" orientation, but has a smaller capacity (8gb and 16 gb only)?

Or will I choose the one with a much, much bigger capacity (120 gb) that can hold up to 30,000 songs, 25,000 photos or 150 hours of videos which also has a sleek but bulkier design compared to the first one?

I'm torn between the two. Design and features or capacity? I'm afraid I might end up buying neither because of so much confusion...hahaha!

P.S. Thank you so much to my brother who made me feel even more confused. Yesterday, when I said I like the iPod classic 120gb, he was selling to me the new iPod nano saying it looks a lot better and more hip than classic. And when I mentioned earlier that I was able to "experience" nano at PowerMac and found it to be really cool, he is now convincing me to consider classic instead because of the capacity. Big thanks huh, you're really helping me decide.

Missing Plumb

2008-08-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

I haven't heard Plumb songs for quite a while. I downloaded some songs from her various albums but I had no time to save them on CD from my former office PC at Synergy. There is someone that I actually requested to download Plumb songs for me but I don't know why until now nothing has been given to me. Tsk, tsk.

I love Plumb's music. It's good to the ears. I love the melody and the beat. The lyrics are simple yet real -- something that the listener can relate to (especially those who are in "emo" mode...hehe!). Most of her songs mainly speak of love and heartbreak (mukhang may pagka-bitter siya...hehe!) but there are also those that have spiritual theme.

Since I've been missing Plumb songs, am posting one of my faves from the album Beautiful Lumps of Coal:

Taken
Plumb

I can see you standing in the pouring rain
Waiting for changes to carry you away
I can see the light fall from your eyes
As we get lost in the tears of this goodbye

But you can't go farther
Than my heart can go
Cause I'll still be loving you
Through the sadness and the madness here
And I'll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
From me

I can hear you laugh
When I close my eyes
I can picture your face
And the strength inside your smile
I can see the words
Dance across your lips
I'll remember forever
Something more than this

And you can't go farther
Than my heart can will go
Cause I'll still be loving you
Thought the sadness and the madness here
And I'll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
Fom me

So you can't go farther
Than my heart will go
Cause I'll still be loving you
Thought the sadness and the madness here
And I'll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
From me

And I'll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
From me
That has taken you
From me

Wait, I uploaded some Plumb songs pala here in my multiply...hehe!

He Hears Me

2008-08-20T17:36:00.000+08:00

I am ~~happy~~ joyful about what God has been doing to my in the past couple of weeks/months.

In my journal entry dated June 18, 2008, I listed down some of my prayer items and prayed for them everytime I have my quiet time. I am so amazed on how God answers them one by one. Here are the things I prayed for/still praying for (I share only those written on the date I mentioned...hehe! ):

I pray to meet new people who will be important to me and who will create an impact in my life -- I didn't expect one of them will be an officemate
I pray to be able to spend more time with friend and deepen and strengthen my relationship with them -- kwentuhan with Armie when I went home the other Sunday, kwentuhan with Jeff when we met up last week, bonding with CROImates at Jenica's despedida last Monday are just some instances
I pray to become a good, worthy and dependable friend to my friends -- I'm not the right one to answer this. hehe!
I pray to have a renewed, burning faith in my Lord -- yes, it feels so overwhelmingly joyful
I pray to be able to use my musical and dancing skills for His glory -- still a work in progress but God allowed me to share it during the youth choir week last Sunday.
I pray to be able to make a difference and to touch other people's lives -- do I? hehe! . This is always my prayer.
I pray to be able to treasure and care for my few, real friends -- I continue to pray, through God's grace.
I pray to have a cell group or small group -- thank You, Lord for the Aqua D-group.

Answered prayers plus some other blessings bring in my lately even if not all things are going well. It just feels good. Of course, I'm still going through a continuous "refinement", a "work in progress", so to speak. But the joy He brings makes it all worth it.

Bakit Ba Nakita Pa Kita?

2008-08-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

You caught my eyes and my heart. I don't know how it happened but I have slowly fallen for you. Everytime I look at you, my heart melts and my soul longs to touch you and feel you. I hope and pray to have you in my life...

It basically has the same features as my black Olympus mju 790 but I love this more primarily because of the color.

But this one is lovely too!

I'm confused!

Disclaimer: Hindi ako mahilig sa color blue.

Para Sa'Yo

2008-08-11T08:19:00.000+08:00

We rehearsed this song yesterday for the Youth Sunday next week. Ang sarap-sarap kantahin ng song na 'to. Last night, I contemplated on its meaning in my life. It says it all. Lalo na yung italicized na part...

Lead Me to the Cross

Hillsong United

Savior I come quiet my soul

Remember

Redemption's hill

Where Your blood was spilled

For my ransom

Everything I once held dear

I count it all as loss

Chorus:

Lead me to the cross

Where Your love poured out

Bring me to my knees

Lord I lay me down

Rid me of myself

I belong to You

Oh lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I tempted and tried

Human

The Word became flesh

Bore my sin in death

Now You're risen

Everything I once held dear

I count it all as loss

Chorus:

Lead me to the cross

Where Your love poured out

Bring me to my knees

Lord I lay me down

Rid me of myself I belong to You

Oh lead me, lead me to the cross

Bridge:

To your heart

To your heart

Lead me to your heart

Lead me to your heart

* Bakit ang sarap ma-inlove sa Iyo?

A Love Song

2008-08-07T08:13:00.000+08:00

One of the best love songs I've ever heard...

Love Song
Third Day

Well I've heard it said, that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
Well, I never climbed the highest mountain
But I walked the hill of calvary

Chorus:
And just to be with you, I would do anything
There's no price I would not pay, no.
And just to be with you, I would give everything
And I would give my life away, yeah.

And I've heard it said that a man would swim the oceans
Just to be with the one he loves.
But all of those dreams, are an empty emotion.
It can never be done.
Well, I never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea.

Chorus:
And just to be with you, I would do anything
There's no price I would not pay, no.
And just to be with you, I would give everything
And I would give my life away, yeah.

Bridge:
And I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sin.
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I give you
And I promise, well I would do it all again.

Chorus:
And just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay, no.
And just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave My life away, yeah.
I gave My life away, yeah

And just to be with you.
Oh, just to be with you.
Oh, just to be with you.
Oh, just to be with you.

HBD Tsong!

2008-08-05T07:41:00.000+08:00

To the person who has always been a blessing to me...

...thank you for always lending me your ears...

...thank you for patiently listening to all my blah-blahs...

...thank you for being an encouragement not only to me but to our li'l bros and sisses as well...

...thank you for praying for me (I assume you do when I tell you prayer requests )...

...thank you for your deep love for the Lord and how it manifests in your life...

...thank you for the treats! hihi!

...thank you for being my very good, real friend...

Happy Birthday Gilbert!

First Few Days of August...

2008-08-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

Internet connection at home has not yet been fixed for a week now. Sad. I couldn't post my so-close-up pic of Jason Wade during Lifehouse's performance at TV5's launch and the videos of Gary V. that I recorded at his concert. Tsk, tsk.

Anyhow, I went home in Nueva last weekend after 2 months. I so missed home -- sleeping with my parents' at their bed, waking up a bit later than my regular wake up time with Daddy's breadfast awaiting me at the dining table, watching TV all night long, cuddling and teasing and kissing my nephews until they get irritated (good tita! hihi!), catching up and kwentuhan and LOL with my churchmates, tambay and foodtrip at Ate Cha's place. And so on and so forth.

I also missed Ate Tin. After several months, I finally caught her! She passed by the house an hour before I left for Manila yesterday. She personally handed me my invitation to her wedding. She grew bigger and has shouting pimples all over her face. But she still carries with her that cheerful, bubbly character. We just had a quick kwentuhan, not as lively and enthusiastic though as before. So I finally heard it straight from her. I didn't know how to react. But I could see a hint of regret in her eyes. I could feel the melancholy.

Last night, in my room, I was thinking about what happened and what Kuya Jon told me about accountability. Two of my closest friends have already been into that kind of situation and it made me think what have I done or have NOT for them as a friend. I asked myself, "Where was I when they needed a friend who will encourage or comfort them, or will simply serve as a sounding board?" Maybe I was too busy with my own personal issues that I forgot that I also am a friend who may be needed by someone. All these made me think what kind of a friend I am to my friends.

I remember a conversation with my church friend when I myself experienced being "alone" at one lowly point in my life. I mentioned that personally, there are certain qualities that I look for a person for me to be able to say that he/she is my real friend, that I can really count on him/her. I pondered on these qualities and reflected if I actually possess them. Sadly, I found out that I lack many of them.

I felt sad about what happened. But there is none that I can do turn things upside down. Maybe I'm also being taught a lot lessons from all these. And I'm hoping to learn them.

Okay, I'm already being melodramatic. Hope we'll have our internet back soon!

My Silversmith is Watching Me

2008-07-24T13:21:00.000+08:00

Weng e-mailed this short Biblical article to me a month ago but I only got the chance to read it when I was cleaning up my e-mail this afternoon. It deeply touched my heart, showing me where God is and what He is doing at times when I go through the "fire". Hope it will also inspire you as it did to me.

***

Malachi 3:3 says: 'He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.'

This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God.

One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining Silver.

As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot; then she thought again about the verse that says: 'He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.' She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined.

The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, 'How do you know when the silver is fully refined?'

He smiled at her and answered, 'Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it.'

If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has his eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

Kanta Muna Ulit

2008-07-21T16:35:00.000+08:00

I Want to Know You
SonicFlood

In the secret, in the quiet place
In the stillness You are there
In the secret, in the quiet hour
I wait only for You
Cause, I want to know You more

Chorus:
I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more

I am reaching for the highest goal
That I might receive the prize
Pressing onward, pushing every hindrance aside
Out of my way
Cause, I want to know You more

* Yes, work in progress...

Updates, Updates!

2008-07-14T18:04:00.000+08:00

This entry is related to my previous posts.

1. I'm currently listening to a good music. Here:

2. On July 31 (not July 18 anymore), we will go to Music Museum to watch this concert -- finally. All July 18 tickets were bought by Unilab na daw kasi. So...

Hehe! Happy me!

I love Christian artists!

Passion World Tour Manila

2008-07-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

Ang daming upcoming concerts! Will watch this, mukha pa naman akong estudyante eh. Hehe! Hope may tickets pa!

For more info, click here, here and here.

Who Am I?

2008-07-13T06:51:00.000+08:00

Wonderful, wonderful song. Makes me wanna cry when I heard it.

Who Am I
Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

* Thanks to Diko for sharing this with me. :)

Good Music

2008-07-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

I want to listen to this...

Gary Valenciano His Love The Repeat

2008-07-05T08:13:00.000+08:00

Malapit na!

Dear Lord

2008-07-01T09:39:00.000+08:00

Please teach me to love the people I hate...

Amen.

QLC

2008-06-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

So it's called Quarter-Life Crisis. Finally, I've found the right term.

Admittedly, I'm going through this QLC thingy. I prefer not to further elaborate. I'm not abnormal if I experience this period in my life, am I?

*sigh*

I need a vision.

Kopi Shap Sawnds

2008-06-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

Gusto ko ng music na pang-coffee shop!

Wala lang. Gusto ma-relax ng utak ko sa kakaisip ng mga bagay na dapat at tamang gawin. Hmmm...

Still

2008-06-14T07:37:00.000+08:00

I'm still a slave. Please pray for me...

Searching For...

2008-06-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

Upon looking at the post-its and some notes penned on my planner during lunch at my office desk today, a realization hit me: I have been too busy searching for things that will make me happy, but not the things that will bring me joy...

SonicFlood

2008-06-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

SonicFlood's concert is moved on August 15 from the initial schedule of June 13, for reasons I still do not know. Same time, 8:00 PM and same venue, Araneta Coliseum.

Now I have more time to save for the ticket. Hihi!

And because I am so excited already about the concert, I searched for their famous and astig version of I Want To Know You from their second album, SonicPraise. I didn't only find the studio recording of the song, I also got the acoustic version and the live version , which are also both creatively done. Trivia: The present SonicFlood is no longer composed of the original members who all left the band in 2000. SonicPraise was recorded by the original SonicFlood members but was released only after the "new" band was formed.

The song's energy remained in the acoustic version despite minimal use of electric sound save for the bass which also sounded acoustic. The band can also be identified for their heavy use of the bass sound, which is evident in the live version in which they tweaked a bit the bassline compared to the studio record, maintaining the power of the song but making it musically artistic.

I'm now going to have a new set of album collection aside from Jars of Clay because my SonicFlood mp3s were only downloaded from the net. Hope their first 2 albums are still available!

So excited already for August 15!

I have an 11-year-old crush!

2008-06-09T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hindi po ito pedophilia. Hehe! Ito ay simpleng paghanga lamang sa isang munting bata. Haha!

Ganito kasi yun. Umuwi kami ng brother ko sa province nung Saturday and our parents fetched us to come with them to visit our tita's resto sa Freedom Park sa Cabanatuan. Habang nagdi-dinner kami, sinabihan ako ng tita ko kung pwede ako mag-judge ng battle of the bands that night at that place because she also happened to be one of the event organizers. Bigla ata hindi naging available yung isang judge na nakuha nila. My mom was actually the one invited kaya lang wala daw siyang alam sa music kaya ako ang isinangkalan niya. Hehe! So yun, napasubo ako. Haha!

There were 8 bands who competed and there was this 11-year-old kid named Isaac (in-introduce siya nung vocalist nila) from one competing band who plays the lead guitar awesomely! Grabe, ang galing sobra! Kung hindi mo siya napapanood, you wouldn't believe that one of that band's lead guitarists is just an incoming fifth grader na mags-start na ang klase tomorrow! His parents must be so proud of him! Sana magka-anak din ako ng ganun! Haha! And their band was really great! Pumasok nga sila sa elimination eh.

Meron ding isang band, which was my number one choice, na sobrang galing. The band was just composed of three members: the lead guitarist, the bassist and the drummer who is also the vocalist. Buong-buo yung tunog nila, walang sabit. They actually sound professional. Very impressive! Ewan ko kung anong klaseng mga daliri meron yung gitarista at bahista nila, ang lupet!!! At yung vocalist, buong-buo din yung boses, parang hindi nagda-drums eh! And I particularly liked the way he interacted with the audience while singing and drumming at the same time, kahit nakaupo lang siya. Hindi din "typical rakista" yung look nila, in fact they look quite formal compared to other bands. Lalo na yung lead guitarist. Ahehe!

There was a tie for the last 2 bands na pumasok to compete for the finals. One has a good drummer, cool na cool, effortless ang pagpalo. Medyo madami yung members nila, may keyboardist and they have 2 vocalists (taga-growl yung isa ) pero maganda yung tunog nila. And the other one has a good-looking vocalist. Hehe! Amazing voice, parang boses from a foreign rock band. Okay din ang tunog nila, hindi sabog and maganda yung coordination.

So yun ang kwento ng isang babaeng napadaan lang galing Manila at nahilang mag-judge ng competition. Hehe! Pero amazing talaga yung bata!

Here In My Life

2008-06-07T06:36:00.000+08:00

I first heard this song at Hillsong United's concert in Araneta Coliseum last May 26. This one is from their album Saviour King. Such a powerful song. Moving. Real.

Here In My Life
Hillsong United

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your word Lord
I'll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failings surely would have drowned me
Still You made a way

Chorus:
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
Here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds the
Way to freedom truth of Jesus
Brought from death into this life
And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the price was Your beloved for me
Still You made a way

5 Candles

2008-06-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

Five Candles (You Were There)
Jars of Clay

A promise or a dare
I would jump if I knew you'd catch me
Staring over the edge
I can't tell if you'll be here for me

I close my eyes and make a wish
Turn out the lights and take a breath
Pray that when the wick is burned
You would say that it's all about love

Chorus:
You were there when I needed you
You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open
You were there when I needed you
You were there when the skies broke wide, wide open

You were never here

I remember you said
Love was more than your good intentions
Empty boxes on the floor
Things I never asked you for
I pray that when the wick is burned
You would say that it's all about love

I can't see the promise of
Excuses you fall upon
I pray to God not holding on
To things you've left undone

You were there when I
You were there when I
You were there when I needed you

UTL

2008-06-06T08:31:00.000+08:00

Utang na loob, mag-reply naman kayo o...

...kahit "yes" or "no" lang...

...

2008-06-05T10:20:00.000+08:00

Ate Tin...

It sings...

2008-05-28T09:11:00.000+08:00

Sad Clown
Jars of Clay

Say how's the weather, so I look out the window
To brighten my soul, but I can't control the rain
That keeps falling
Smile on the outside that never comes in
A comedy, mystery, irony, tragedy
So I scream "let the show begin"

You break me open, turn on the light
Stumble inside with me, with me

Do I entertain you?
Do I preoccupy you with my wit to cover this lie?
Are you mesmerized?
Do you think me faithful, do you think me a clown?
I picked out this shirt, I put on this hat
I wore all this paint just for you

Thought Balloon

2008-05-27T17:22:00.000+08:00

Real things, like diamonds, are rare to find...

Len-len Tagged Me!

2008-05-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

And since I still can't post the pics from our Batangas trip last weekend, I'm gonna do this tag thingy.

THE RULES

1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post the rules.
3. At the end of your blog you need to choose ten people you're going to tag and list their names.
4. Do not forget to comment on their site that they are tagged.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

1. I love dancing (was a dance troupe member in elementary and high school) but it has been a very looooong time since I last danced (2002 pa ata, sa streetdance class nung college) so I'm seriously considering taking dance classes (streetdance or rumba) .

2. I love music and playing musical instruments (I play the guitar, bass and drums) at matagal ko na din tong hindi nagagawa .

3. Jars of Clay is my most favorite band (and I actually collect their albums!)

4. I want to become sporty again and play volleyball and/or table tennis, go jogging around UP every Sunday, and learn how to play badminton.

5. It is my dream to: 1.) go to Bohol (which we already have plans ) and 2.) climb Mt. Pulag (or Gulugod Baboy muna, masyado ata ambisyosa ang Pulag ).

6. I laugh so easily. In short, mababaw ang kaligayan at madaling bentahan ng corny na jokes (di ba Joey??? hehe! ).

7. I drool over Dennis Trillo (so gwapo! ), Marc Nelson (so gwapo and so hot!) and Joshua Harris (so lahat na! haha! ).

8. Sobrang antukin ko nung college (ask my CROI friends! )!

9. DQ ice cream, blueberry cheesecake and coffee make me smile.

10. I love spending time alone. I love silence. I love serenity.

Para Kay Vena

2008-05-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

(or "Veena" para mas sosyal): Cheers!

Sabi ko nga kay Ronald, I'm not dying to be your friend. I actually don't even bother to become your friend. Duh?!

Tse! (ulit)

Cheers!

Bass

2008-05-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

Apart from acoustic guitar, I also love playing bass though I'm not really able to master it. Bass adds beat and rhythm to a song and it's actually fun to play (one has to be prepared for shoulder aches though 'coz the instrument is kinda heavy and for some blisters and callous on fingers because of the thick strings . But I promise, they're all worth it. ).

One cool bass line I've heard is that one from Zombie by The Cranberries and I really, really want to learn how to play this. Here's the tab that I got from ultimate-guitar.com.

Song: Zombie
Band: The Cranberries
Album: No Need to Argue
Tuning: Standard
Tabbed By: fr3n_skidrow

Intro:
G-----
D-----
A-----
E-12\-


Right into Chorus Riff (play 3X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3-2-2-2-222-3-2-3- 


Verse (play 4X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-----------------3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-2-2-2-2-2-3-2-3-


Chorus (play 4X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3-2-2-2-222-3-2-3- 


Verse (Play 4X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-----------------3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-2-2-2-2-2-3-2-3-


Chorus (Play 2X): 
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3-2-2-2-222-3-2-3-


Chorus B (Play 2X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-5-3-0---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-3-5-2-2-2-222-3-2-3-



Interlude (Play 2X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-335-3-0-------------------3-3-3-335-3-0---
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0---------------3-0-0-0-000-0-3-0---------------3-


Chorus B (Play 2X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-5-3-0---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-3-5-2-2-2-222-3-2-3-


Chorus (Play 2X):
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3---------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0-----------------3-3-3-333-3-5-3-2-2-2-222-3-2-3-


Ending Bass Solo
G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-335-3-0-------------------3-3-3-335-3-0---
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0---------------3-0-0-0-000-0-3-0---------------3-

G------------------------------------------------------------------
D------------------------------------------------------------------
A------------------3-3-3-335-3-0-----------------------------------
E--0-0-0-000-0-3-0---------------3-0-------------------------------

Hmmm...Paano ba 'to basahin? Parang guitar tabs lang din? I'm used to reading guitar chords than tabs for bass kasi.

Missing

2008-05-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

I'm missing my friends...

Sari-Saring Kwento

2008-05-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

that all happened in one day.

CAUTION: This is a long entry so read only when you have the patience to do so. Reader is also adviced to read by section to avoid getting drowned by so much words.

The Encounter

Kahapon, pina-attend ako ng boss ko sa MORES General Meeting sa Discovery Suites. MORES is an organization of marketing research professionals in the Philippines. I was with a market research agency before ako lumipat sa Starcom. Therefore, I already expected na a-attend sa MORES meeting yung former boss ko. If you have read my entry last January, you would have an idea about my experience when I left my previous company. So before going to the meeting, iniisip ko na kung paano magiging interaction namin ng dati kong boss. Civil lang ba or somewhat like before na kwentuhan, kamustahan. Buti na lang a-attend si Steph, yung dati kong senior sa previous company na lumipat na rin ng ibang company. I wouldn't have to deal with the situation alone, very uncomfortably.

So I arrived at the venue and unfortunately wala pa si Steph. While waiting for and texting her, I got a glimpse of my former boss. And so the uncomfortable feeling came rushing in. In my mind, kapag nagka-interact kami ni former boss, hindi ko alam paano magre-react. Thank God dumating na si Steph at na-spot-an niya agad si former boss and waived at her. My former boss waived back and when she saw me, nag-smile naman siya. The awkward feeling subsided a bit until Steph asked me na mag-join sa table where GAR was sitting. So we joined her and started some small talk. GAR asked how I'm doing. I somehow felt relief. Wala ng tension between us like the one that took place on my last day at her company. Though we weren't able to talk that much (dahil ang medyo malaki yung spaces between the chairs at ayoko naman sumigaw ), I was thankful na naging okay na din kami kahit papaano. Siguro hindi na kagaya before yung relationship namin but honestly, I still hold her in high respect as a mentor. Na-realize ko, I already need to let go of the hard feelings left in my heart. And I'm already prepared to do it. Hope she feels the same way also.

So now, I can already freely express myself and tell about my previous work experience without a tinge of anger or pain in my heart. That's what I've always been looking forward to. At least, it has already begun.

The "Critic"

After the meeting, I was having a very difficult time hailing a taxi along ADB going back to the office. After several failed attempts, I was able to convince one taxi driver to bring me to Makati. Pag sakay ko sa taxi:

Manong Driver (in his 60s, habang dahan-dahang lumalakad yung taxi): Ay, miss, kakagaling ko lang ng Makati eh. Naghatid na ko dito sa Ortigas, dito na lang sana ako mag-iikot. Dagdagan nyo na lang [yung pamasahe], pabalik-balik na kasi ako saka ma-traffic sa Makati.
Ako (cool naman though sobrang init sa taxi nya): Balik na lang ho ulit kayo dun. Ganun ho talaga, nagta-taxi tayo eh, so kailangan ihatid talaga natin yung pasahero sa pupuntahan nila.

Hindi naman ako pinababa ni Manong Driver though I know na nage-expect pa din siya ng dagdag sa bayad. As we go along the heavy traffic in San Miguel Ave, nag-salita ulit si Manong Driver.

Manong Driver: Makaluma yung tugtog ko MIss ha, okay lang ba?
Ako: Sige, Manong, okay lang. (Sa isip-isip ko, kung Frank Sinatra keri pa, kaso kundiman eh. hehe!)
Manong Driver: Magaganda yung mga kanta noong araw, hindi kagaya ngayon. Maiingay tapos kung ano-ano pa mga lyrics.
Ako: Hehe! (Hindi ako komportable makipag-usap nung time na yun)
Manong Driver: Masarap pakinggan yung mga ganyang tugtog. Ayoko makinig ng mga debate, mga balita ngayon. Nakakasira ba ng araw. Noong araw mas lalong masarap makinig ng kanyang tugtog lalo na may pangkain ka. Eh ngayon, naku. (Sabay iling si Manong).
Ako: May probinsya ho ba kayo?
Manong Driver: Matagal na ko dito sa Maynila nakatira pero taga-Ilocos Norte ako, sa bayan ni Marcos. I worked in the government noong araw, under the Marcos administration. (Aba, at nag-English si Manong!). There was no corrupt during that time. (Aba, English talaga ito!). If there is a froject (ay, sablay!), all the money will go to the froject (inulit pa!). No forsiyento, forsiyento! (sige lang, Manong!)... blah, blah, blah... (He was actually trying to build up the Marcos administration, saying good things about the government that time). You will not corrupt because of ashame (hay naku, hindi ko na inintindi pagi-Ingles niya, inintindi ko na lang yung message niya). Hindi tulad ngayon, puro corrupt! Pag may froject, may porsiyento si ganito, may porsiyento si ganyan.
Ako: Ah oho, may mga lagay-lagay. Hindi lang naman ho sa gobyerno nangyayari yan eh, kahit sa private sector, sa mga corporation. Kahit nga ho ordinaryong tao gumagawa na rin ng ganyan, mga lagay-lagay (I was actually pertaining to his paghingi ng lagay earlier).

Tuloy pa rin si Manong sa kanyang talumpati kung gaano kahusay at kaganda ang gobyerno ni Marcos. Habang nags-speech si Manong, I just threw some questions related to the Marcos administration just to know his disposition about these. Mahaba-haba din ang arguments na baluktot ni Manong Driver. Basta, para sa kanya, magaling na presidente si Marcos, hindi siya corrupt, wala siyang ginawang violations.

We were talking about this all throughout my taxi ride at nung malapit na ko bumaba, we both concluded that in any kind of service, whether in the government or not, we all should practice honesty. Ayun, sana na-realize niya ang pagiging corrupt niya nang hingan niya ko ng dagdag sa bayad.

There's nothing wrong about criticizing -- be it the government or any other entity or individual for that matter. We have the right to, in the first place. We're living in a democratic country where people have the right and freedom to express their opinions. My disappointment though goes to those people who are mere blabbers about the undeniably rampant corruption in the country but they themselves live that kind of life -- like the taxi driver who fearlessly expresses with conviction his political opinion about corruption but asks me to pay beyond what I am supposed to pay him.

Nung bumaba ako sa taxi, I paid him the exact amount: P112.50. Akala ko magre-reklamo siya. Dahil once na hanapin niya yung dagdag, sasabihin ko sa kanya: "Manong, wag na kayo mag-reklamo tungkol sa corruption sa gobyerno, wala naman kayo pinagkaiba sa mga bulok na corrupt dun." Sabay bagsak sa pinto taxi.

The "Impatient"

On a lighter side, I met up with Joey and his brother Carlo in Megamall after office to shop for some sale items at the start of the three-day sale. Carlo went around while Joey and I hopped from one store to another. We first looked for Joey's polo at Memo and after getting what we think is a good one for him, I dragged him to the women's stores. I was supposed to get a pair of low-priced, chic Celine shoes but they didn't fit comfortably on my feet. We went to VNC but I didn't find a good-buy pair of shoes. I just decided to go to Kamiseta and started to unearth amongst the heaped clothes in each table a cute but definitely cheap top.

In the middle of Joey's impatience, I was able to grab a brown, laced sleeveless top that fits me well. I hurriedly bought the blouse for P240. Hihi! I lurve it! Cute!

We looked for Carlo afterwards as we were already done with our shopping and we already had to go home. We then passed by the Mizuno outlet and I just scouted for a cross-training/running shoes which I wanted to use for jogging. I looked at each shoes and asked Joey's comments on their look. And when I handed one pair to take a closer look at it, the impatient boyfriend of mine grabbed my other hand and slowly pulled me towards the store's exit. You really love me so much baby, huh?

That's why, I can say, I get my best shopping experience alone. Away from getting pressured by my boyfriend who easily gets bored when I'm in the midst of an eager search for a perfect blouse. I have the liberty to rome around, move from shop to shop without a "timer ticking". Nevertheless, I still enjoy shopping with you, baby. I think it's the quality of time we spend going around while cracking corny and silly jokes and laughing together that makes the shopping experience enjoyable (eventhough I'm not able to concentrate on choosing ). Also, I like it when you give me that big grin signalling that your patience has already reached its limit...hehe!

The Cranberries

Tsk, tsk. Hindi sana ako nagta-tiyaga sa paputol-putol na pag-download ng Cranberries songs sa multiply kung hindi mo kinalimutan yung CD na pina-burn ko...huhu! Don't forget Plumb! Labyu! hihi!

The Cranberries

2008-05-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

*Balik songhits na naman ang blog ko.*

Been listening to The Cranberries for a couple of days now (thanks to those multiply-ers who uploaded complete tracks of their album ) and I realized how wonderful their music is. Wala ako masabi. Galing, galing. Great voice, great musicality. Masarap pa i-jamming songs nila kasi masarap kantahin and simple lang yung chords (naalala ko yung bass ng Zombie, astig!). Sayang lang, na-disband na sila. But I'd say they're one of the best bands I've ever heard.

Here's one of my favorite The Cranberries classics.

Linger
The Cranberries

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart, it's ruining everything
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

Chorus:
But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to let it linger
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, but I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

Dahil Badtrip Ako...

2008-04-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

Q & A from Friendster:

1. What name plus "o"?
- gwynnao (amfangit! :D )

2. Two state at the moment?
- badtrip at badtrip

3. What are you listening to right now?
- Schuyler Fisk songs

4. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now?
- "these words are heavy on my mind, like songs that say goodbye..."

5. Describe where you are right now.
- on our bed stuffed with clean clothes, pillows and blankets :D

6. What is your highlight of the week?
- the week has just begun so none so far

7. What are you craving to have right now?
- wala

8. Any unforgettable childhood memory?
- i'm not really in the mood to flash back my memory... :(

9. A not-so-good childhood memory?
- same answer as above :(

10. What are your nicknames?
- gwyn, gwynr/gwenner

11. Your plans for tomorrow?
- finish updating viewing trends and move on with my next to-do

12. Your two plans for today?
- eat dinner and sleep

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
- yuh

14. Do you party?
- nope, not my lifestyle

15. Do you like twins?
- yup, so much! love 'em!

16. Fill in the blank "I am ..
- so pissed right now...

18. Say anything you like to whoever is reading.
- naiinis ako :(

19. Are you feeling hungry?
- a bit

20. Who do you miss right now?
- si ate tin :(

21. Last friend you saw online
- can't recall

22.Last friend you saw go offline
- i'm not logged on in YM right now

23. What do you like about night?
- i have time to be alone and think

24.If you were in a farm, what do you want to see?
- trees, greeneries, fruits, flowers, blue sky, white clouds

25. Last person who gave a comment to you?
- sa friendster? si andrea, high schoolmate/churchmate ko

26. Did you like it?
- hehe, keri lang :D

27. Do you play an instrument? What instrument?
- yup. guitar, bass guitar and drums. di na ata ako marunong ng mga yan ngayon...hehe!

28.What song did u last hear?
- Hello by Schuyler Fisk

29. Where did you hear it from?
- from the PC

30. Now what are you listening to?
- Paperweight by Schuyler Fisk

31. Who haven't you seen in a while?
- churchfriends, CROI

32. Do you miss them?
- yup, yup

33. Where ARE THEY?
- they are where they are now...

34. Given a choice, would you sing or dance?
- both! :D but I haven't danced for quite sometime now...

Cheers Ulit!

2008-04-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

Cheers para sa mga taong malabong kausap!

Tsk, tsk. Sa susunod 'wag na lang kayo um-oo o kaya magsalita kung hindi naman kayo sigurado o seryoso sa mga pinagsasasabi nyo. Yung tipong "oo, sige, basta" o kaya may mga kung sasabihin pero sa hangin lang pala sinasabi. Nakaka-irita. FYI, nakakaabala din kasi sa ibang tao yung pagiging "malabo/drawing" nyo.

Kaya para sa mga taong malabong kausap, better stick with your words unless you want other people not to take you seriously OR never believe you anymore...

Cheers!

* I thought I'm OK, hindi pala.

3 Things That Made Me So Excited Today

2008-04-24T17:12:00.000+08:00

No. 1: HILLSONG UNITED IN MANILA '08

No. 2: GARY VALENCIANO HIS LOVE INSPIRATIONAL CONCERT

No. 3: SONICFLOOD LIVE! PRAISE AND WORSHIP NIGHT

Weeee! I need to have lots and lots of money! I wanna watch them all!

Cheers!

2008-04-17T08:09:00.000+08:00

Para "sa'yo", "sa'yo" at "sa'yo": TSE!

1:05 PM

2008-04-01T09:05:00.000+08:00

Life Is...

2008-03-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

I recall reading a blog post about other people or another person making one's life complicated. I'm now beginning to think and believe that there will always be someone who will make things in our life, or our life itself, complicated...

*sigh*

Unfair. Nakakainis.

Summer Wish

2008-03-17T08:58:00.000+08:00

While doing some leisure surfing during lunch break in the office, I came across this website and upon exploring the site, my zealous desire to go out this summer intensified. Now that I already have time for vacations, I just can't let this summer pass without going beyond the boundaries of NLEX/SLEX. So Lord, please allow me to experience a "real" summer this time. Please allow our "planned" out-of-town trips to transpire. Thanks in advance!

Some Random Updates

2008-03-15T20:25:00.000+08:00

Just a quick look on my past couple of weeks:

Weekend Getaways. For the consecutive weekends since February entered, I was away from home enjoying my renewed social life since I left the MR industry. I stayed home once because of my father's plea for me not to leave for they had not seen me for the consecutive weekends that they visited us. Here are the places where I could be found when I was missing in action at home:

February 9 - Hot Air Balloon Festival with Joey's high school friends in Clark, Pampanga and Subic Safari afterwards

February 16 - Joey's nephew's Christening in San Fernando, Pampanga

February 23-25 - Baguio Panagbenga Festival with Tuesday Group

March 8 - Tagaytay and Calaruega trip with Tuesday Group

As Mona puts it, nahahawa na daw ako sa paglalakwatsa nila...hehe!

There are some more "gala" lined up in the coming weeks especially in April. Need to tighten my budget. By the way, will be going home to Nueva Ecija pala next week. Yey!

New Cam. After a looooonnnggg wait from HSBC because of their poooooorrrr customer service (I'll post an entry about that "arggghh" experience I had with them, if sinipag...hehe!), I finally got myself a new toy (in replacement of my lost Samsung phone)! Got this one just a few days ago. I love it!

OLYMPUS MJU 790

I actually got the color black

I'm now ready for summer! haha!

ABS-CBN Event at Embassy, The Fort, March 13, 2008. Had fun because I was able to see some celebs and I got to use my one-day-old cam to take pics of them. Hihi! Sadness, I didn't win any prize in the raffle. Tsk. Di bale, I might win in the next events. Hehe!

Kyu End Ey

2008-03-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Q and A from Friendster:

1. Kanino galing huling chocolates na natanggap mo?
- kay Loren, yung ni-replace ko sa Starcom :)

2. Magbigay ka ng apat na tao na lagi mo katext
- Joey, Jose Paolo, Joeyboy, Jose :D

3. Sino huli nagtext sayo?
- si Joey

4. Ilan na nagview sayo dito sa FS?
- anong FS?

5. Kumakain ka ba ng patatas?
- oo naman

6. Kailan birthday mo?
- November 24. Tumatanggap na ko ng gift ngayon pa lang...hehe!

7. Umiinom ka ba?
- I'm a water drinker ;)

8. May pupuntahan ka ba mamaya?
- wala, nasa bahay na ko eh.

9. Saan?
- sige na nga, sa bed, tutulog. :D

10. Eh bukas? Saan?
- yup, sa office

11. Ano ang last 3 na ntatandaan mo na compliment sayo?
- maganda daw ako, sexy at mala-dyosa...sino kaya nagsabi nun? :D

12. May syota ka ba ngaun?
- anong "syota"? what a word! "jowa" meron! haha! malala! :D

13. Mahal mo nman?
- my baby? sooooo much! ;)

14. Ano whole name ng ex mo?
- huh? bakit biglang ganito ang tanong?

15. Eh ano whole name ng syota mo?
- "jowa" nga ang meron ako! kulet! haha!

16. Ano first description sayo ng mga tao tao?
- mahinhin daw...haha! funny!

17. May inaaway ka ba?
- sino aawayin ko?

18. Eh may umaaway ba sau?
- as far as I know wala :D

19. Nakasakay ka nba sa eroplano o kaya barko?
- yup, erpleyn!

20. Ano masasabi mo sa kaaway mo?
- wala nga ko kaaway

21. Legal ba kayo ng syota mo?
- kulet ng lahi nito! hehe! legal kami ni boypren ;)

22. Kumakain ka ba ng isaw?
- op kors! the best yung sa ilang-ilang and kalay! gusto ko mag-isaw!

23. May kaibigan ka bang tibo?
- ang alam ko wala

24. Eh bakla? Kung mron, magbigay ka.
- friend but not really a close friend

25. Pumapatol ka ba sa tibo/bakla?
- everybody knows that I won't ;)

26. Madali ka ba magalit?
- medyow :D

27. Magaling ka ba manglait?
- well, tanungin niyo na lang sina Kuya Jermaine, Ate Tin, Jeff, etc.. :o)

28. Nakatabi mo na ba mtulog syota mo?
- "jowa" nga eh! haha!

29. huli mo tinext?
- sino huli ko tinext ba to? si Joey. textmates kami eh. haha!

30. Ano gusto mo sabihin sa mahal mo?
- aylabyu...ahehe! ;)

Why Do Boys Fall in Love with Girls*

2008-03-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

This was written by a guy (daw).

Guys, totoo ba 'to? Do you agree with all these? Or with some lang? Or none at all? Ahehe!

1. Girls always smell good even if it is just shampoo

2. The way their head always finds the right spot on our shoulders

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of sudden everything in the world is right

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way it takes them hours to get dressed but in the end it's all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even if it's -30 outside -- malamang wala sa Pilipinas yung nagsulat nito.

9. They look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the
most beautiful girl on earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13 . The way they smile

14. The way you feel after you see her name on your cell after you just had a big fight

15. The way they say "lets not fight anymore"- eventhough you know that an hour later...

16. The way they kiss you after a fight

17. The way they kiss you after you say "i love you"

18. Actually..The way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. They way they apologize after crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt: i think every girl is guilty of this! :)

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though we don't admit it)

23. The way they say "i miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so it doesn't hurt her anymore.

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die
without them, it matters not! Because once in your life, whatever they are to the world, they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, travel the depths of their
souls and say a million things without trace of sound, you know that your own life is
inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beats of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper does it justice. It is a thing of not the mind but the heart.

A feeling.

Only felt. -- so feeling lang? But feelings are deceiving!

*Posted in Friendster bulletin by a friend.

Songs Like This

2008-03-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

Of the 5 Schuyler Fisk songs that I have listened so far, this is one of those I fell in love with that I keep on playing it over and over again. The melody, the music and Schuyler's voice blend so well speaking of the emotion the song is trying to convey. I specifically love the way she sung the chorus. It's very heartfelt, so full of emotion. The drumbeat on the second stanza after the chorus saves one from being so carried away by the soft, gloomy intro. It even gives a touch of Beatles on the bridge part. hihi! :D

Songs That Say Goodbye

Standing at your door
Just as nervous as the first time
And you greet me with a kiss
How could you know that I don't feel right
I wish there was a way I could want you
Wish that I could be the right one for you
Wish there was an easy way to say this

These words are heavy on my mind
Like songs that say goodbye
Like songs that say goodbye

How can I explain that you did everything the right way
Yeah you made me feel safe and you made me want to say
Things I couldn't say
Wish I didn't have to watch you fall
Wish this didn't have to hurt at all
Wish there was an easy way to say this

These words are heavy on my mind
Like songs that say goodbye
Like songs that say goodbye

And I don't want to take it back
The time we had
Got no regrets
I don't want to wonder if
We should have been
What could've been
What might've been

But I didn't want to break you
I didn't want to break you
Like songs that say goodbye
I didn't want to break you
I didn't want to break you
Like songs that say goodbye
Like songs that say goodbye

Music Mode

2008-03-02T06:22:00.000+08:00

Love the guitar intro and the drumbeat on the chorus.

Standing Still
Jewel

Cuttin' through the darkest night in my two headlights
Trying to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here to the twilight
There's a dead end to my left, there's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, you aren't in sight

Do you want me, like I want you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?

Mothers on the stoop, boys in souped-up coupes on this hot summer night
Between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and the choice that's right
I roll the window down, feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town
Feel broken down, I feel broken down

Do you need me, like I need you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?

Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow

Do you love me, like I love you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Are you passing me by? (Passing me by)
Do you want me? (Passing me by)
Do you need me, like I need you too?
And do you want me, like I want you?
Are you passing me by?

D'yan Ka Magaling

2008-02-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

I realized one thing I'm perfectly good at: it's hurting the people who care about me.

Hello

2008-02-20T17:45:00.000+08:00

Love this cute, giggly song by Schuyler Fisk. Love her voice, love the guitar.

Hello

Hello
It's me again
A whole lot's changed
Since I left and
I don't know I guess
I felt like checking in

Surprise
You let it ring
Well it's your turn to
leave me hanging
I don't care
I know you love it
when you see me call

I wonder who you're loving now
I'm guessing we won't work things out

You know what they say
You can't have it so you want it back
I'm way past that
Believe me
If you could be in my life
Like you've been on my mind
It'd be so easy

Hello
It's me again
It's three days now
That you've been in my dreams
and I don't know, I guess
you've just been on my mind
I don't know, I guess
I think about you all the time

I wonder if she's much like me
I wonder if she's what you need

You know what they say
You can't have it so you want it back
I'm way past that
Believe me
If you could be in my life
Like you've been on my mind
It'd be so easy

I know I'm to blame
But it kills me that
I made you hate me
Like you've erased me
And I know what they say
They say you'll be happier
Better off without me

I'm sure it's hard to see me
I'm sure you don't believe a word
Because you've heard it all before
And we're so far from where we were

(da da da da da dum)

Goodbye
I'll let you go
I'll get back to life
And living solo
'Cause I know I need a few years on my own

You know what they say
You can't have it so you want it back
I'm way past that
Believe me
If you could be in my life
Like you've been on my mind
It'd be so easy

I know I'm to blame
But it kills me that
I made you hate me
Like you've erased me
And I know what they say
They say you'll be happier
Better off without me

All For Love

2008-02-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

This song never fails to touch my heart and soul everytime I listen to it. Thank You, for you everlasting love, Lord...

All For Love
Hillsong United

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Gwynna The "Dreamer "

2008-02-03T14:24:00.001+08:00

When I read I Kissed Dating Goodbye, I never thought that I man like him still exists. Nasa kanya na ata lahat - a man of faith, gwapo (*blush*), a good son and a loving brother, etc... From then on, I started dreaming of him...hehe!

Joshua Eugene Harris

But he broke my heart. I found out he was married na pala upon reading Boy Meets Girl, where he related his own beautiful love story...

Josh and his wife, Shannon

Ouch...haha! Shannon, I envy you! hehe!

If only he were single, I'd pray hard for him! Sabi nga ni Kuya Dennis, "luluhuran pa sa asin..." hehe! Bakit ba kasi nakilala pa kita...hahaha! Hay, dream on, Gwynna... haha!

Btw, he also enjoys Jars of Clay's Good Monsters! Soulmate talaga kami...hahaha!

Hay, tigilan na ang kalokohan na 'to! hehe!

P.S. For more info about Josh Harris, visit his website www.joshharris.com (where I "stole" the pics ).

For the Nth Time...

2008-02-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

Lord, I'm sorry...

Buhay Hayskul

2008-01-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

Q and A from Friendster No. 3:

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag-flag ceremony?
- late ako dumadating :D

2. Anong favorite mong bilhin sa canteen?
- flying saucer sandwich!

3. Na-guidance/principal's/csde office ka na ba?
- I can't remember an instance

4. Sinong favorite teacher mo doon?
- sino nga ba?

5. Tropa mo ba yung guard ng school niyo?
- hindi masyado

6. Saan ka usually tumatambay? Why?
- sa may L shape na upuan sa may gate kasi secret! hehe! saka kala mang tabsy! kasi yun ang tambayan ng barkada.

7. What's your most unforgettable experience?
- madami!

8. Varsity?
- nope

9. Sinong una mong nakilala sa highschool mo?
- mga friends, classmates and schoolmates ko nung elementary

10. Sinu-sino mga kabarkada mo nung higschool?
- cool guys!

11. Nami-miss mo na ba yung uniform mo?
- hehe, kaka-miss din pala... :D

12. Ilang beses mo nang nawawala ung ID mo?
- di ko ata nawala, maingat ako sa ID eh ;)

13. Favorite classmate?
- none in particular

14. Most unforgettable person? Why?
- no comment

15. What's your batch yearbook like?
- looks like a yearbook :D

16. I-describe ang mukha mo sa graduation.
- short hair ako nun (buhok ang dinescribe ko..hehe!)

17. Anong binibili mo sa labas tuwing uwian?
- anything na makakain

18. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?
- never pa in my 23 years of existence

19. Nangarag ka ba sa paghahabol sa projects?
- yup

20. Anong unang-una mong ginawa right after graduation?
- tumambay sa bahay, um-attend sa youth activities ng church

21. Ano naman ang papel mo sa Intrams?
- naging player ata ako ng volleyball..hehe!

22. Favorite subjects?
- lahat! haha! :p

23. Kung papalitan ang color ng uniform niyo, okay lang?
- nope, unique nga uniform namin eh ;)

24. Nasa Friendster mo ba yung crush mo nung highschool mo?
- wala

25. Did you ever regret going to your highschool?
- nope

26. Kilala mo ba kung sino ang nag-post nito?
- uu, schoolmate ko :D

27. Sino sa mga ka-batch mo ang dapat isali sa STARSTRUCK?
- di kasi pang-starstruck looks namin eh, pang-hollywood...bwahahaha! :p

28. Ano ang best section mo?
- rizal, mangga, narra, sampaguita! :D

10 Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 28

2008-01-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

1. Learn how to swim
2. Go mountain climbing and eventually climb Mt. Pulag
3. Take piano lessons (hope I'm not yet too old for this :D )
4. Have someone teach me to master guitar (or bass or drums)
5. Enroll in a street dance and/or rumba class
6. Become part of a cell group
7. Watch any Jars of Clay, Sonicflood or Hillsong concert
8. Go to New Zealand!
9. Meet Joshua Harris :)
10. Pray hard until God answers my prayer

Another Note to a Father

2008-01-27T22:43:00.001+08:00

Dear Lord,

If taking away something in my life would please You, then let it be done. Just please teach me to have a heart that completely trusts in You -- that You have something in store for me, something much more beautiful, something much more wonderful. And please help me keep that hope and faith in my heart, that whatever it is that You're planning for me is way much better than my mind could ever think of...

When Shall I See You?

2008-01-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

Mt. Pulag

Kuya Darwin climbing all the way to Mt. Pulag

I'm dying to climb a mountain...
To experience it's grandeur and beauty.
To feel the peace and serenity that go with it...

Mountain, Oh dear mountain, when shall I see you?

* Photos grabbed from Kuya Darwin's friendster account. :)

A Newly-Found Good Artist

2008-01-26T01:47:00.000+08:00

While looking at some random videos at youtube, I came across a cover of this bubbly song being played and sung by an English (or American?) acoustic guitar player (she's got wonderful voice and an excellent guitar skills! Love her cover of Ne-Yo's Because of You, astig! :D ). The song's title is "Hello" so I searched on the net the original singer and found out it's Schuyler Fisk. I checked her website and myspace page and listened to her songs. Amazing, beautiful acoustic songs one would love to listen to. Great acoustics blended with a very soothing voice.

Here are her webpages:
http://www.schuylerfisk.com/
http://www.myspace.com/schuylerfisk

Happy listening! :)

In Your Arms

2008-01-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

A song for You...

When You Hold Me
Jaci Velasquez

You've been so good to me and maybe that's why
I move so carelessly through the greet and goodbyes
I don't notice all the little things, that's why I'm scared
I have been noticing here and I'm needing You here

I've been thinking it over, I've been thinking it over, and I'd like to
say...

When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me more, put Your arms around me more
When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me Lord, when I'm not worth waiting for
You’re waiting for me

You're all I want to be, and that all I desire
Still I've been running free and I'm getting so tired
'Cause I've been chasing all the little things that take me from You
I've just been noticing I don't know what to do

And I've been thinking it over, I've been thinking it over, and I'd like to
say...

When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me more, put Your arms around me more
When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me Lord, when I'm not worth waiting for
You’re waiting for…

When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me more, put Your arms around me more
When You hold me, when You hold me
Put Your arms around me Lord, when I'm not worth waiting for
You’re waited for...
You’ve waited for me

A Note of Thanks...

2008-01-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

The things I went through in the past few days or even weeks were not easy - physically, mentally and most importantly, emotionally. I never thought that leaving my previous company would be "disastrous" and "traumatic", shall I say. I opt not to discuss in detail everything that took place since I filed my resignation simply because they are so painful to remember and re-narrating them just brings back bad memories. I think it's better to just let go of them. After all, I already consider my experience in that company a closed chapter of my life.

I'm writing this entry not to refresh myself of that horrible experience but to remind me how gracious and merciful God was to me when I was going through all those difficulties. It was even more intense and heartfelt at that point when I felt like I was demoralized. God made me realize I wasn't alone. He was there. He never left my side. He never abandoned me. My brother who was the first one I talked to after what happened and whom God used to strengthen me at that particular point in time was there. My friends who patiently listened and comforted me when I was down were there. Yes, God truly reveals Himself in circumstances we badly need Him.

And so, from the deepest of my heart, these words of heartfelt thanks go to the people who served as God's instruments to uplift my weakening spirit and to my Lord Himself whose mere presence I found so relieving...

...thank you, Diko, for encouraging me to overcome my intense emotion. I really cried after our conversation over the phone.
...thank you, Ate Tin, Jeff and Gilbert, for a night spent listening and lifting me up.
...thank you, Joey, for reassuring me that things will be alright soon.
...thank You, Lord, for everything that You've done.

Now, I'm beginning a new chapter of my life with a new work, a new company, a new environment. I hope and pray that God's grace and mercy will continually be upon me as I go on with this journey He has set for me.

Listenin'

2008-01-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

Jars of Clay made a wonderful song for me...

There Is A River
Jars of Clay
Album: Good Monsters

There is a river that washes you clean
There is a tree that marks the places you've been
Blood that was spilled, although not your own,
For all of your tears, are the wages for things you have done

And all of those nights
Spent alone in the darkness of your mind
Give it up, Let go
These are things you were never meant to shoulder

There is a river that washes you clean
There is a tree that marks the places you've been
Blood that was spilled, although not your own
For all of those tears, love will atone

So, give up the right
To control the waves that empty out your life
Above wild skies
Are the rays that break the shadows we design

Give it up, let go
These are things you were never meant to shoulder
Give it up, let go

There is a river that washes you clean
There is a tree that marks the places you've been
Blood that was spilled, although not your own
For all of those things, love will atone

I know the world can turn in different ways
Most of the time, we're simply hanging on
And under the signs of how we all behave
We might find the place that we belong

There is a river that washes you clean
There is a tree that marks the places you've been
Blood that was spilled, although not your own
For all of these things, love will atone

For all of those nights, that you cried all alone
All of your tears, love will atone

Karir Daw

2008-01-12T09:11:00.000+08:00

Maaga ako nakauwi from office the other night. Pagdating ko sa bahay, in-on ko yung TV for news at 24 Oras yung palabas, Chika Minute segment. Ini-interview si Rufa Mae tungkol sa kanyang career at love life. Nung tinanong siya about her lovelife, eto yung sinabi niya:

"...Para sa akin kasi career ang lovelife. Kung hindi ko rin naman kakaririn, wag na lang..."

She has a point, di ba? ;)

Can You, Please?

2008-01-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

From Weng's blog:

"...Break my heart for the things that break Your heart..."

Can You also do this to me? :(

Sweet Sound

2008-01-09T01:13:00.000+08:00

Was surprised to hear this from my brother's playlist. I've loved this song since the first time I heard it.

Love Will Find You
Jaci Velasquez

Oh-oh, oh-oh.
A blue moon
Is the only light that falls upon your room --
Your cold room.

Too soon
There’ll be another empty morning in your life,
But you’ll try again.

Though the sun
Is the only warmth that shines within your heart --
Your cold heart....
Oh how your dreams have been forsaken,
And now it seems your hope’s mistaken;
But just when you’re sure your world is breaking,

(Love will find you)
And It will heal a heart that’s grieving.
(Love will find you)
You’ve gotta see,
You’ve gotta see.

(Love will find you)
When you believed you’d stopped believing.
(Love will find you)
Love will find you....

Bright lights
From the streets that wind a way across the night,
(A way through the endless night...)
Oh the endless night.

You might go on searching in the shadows waiting there,
Already where you run
Like a lost and lonely ghost upon the wind
And cry again.

Hoping to lose the pain you’re holding (you’re holding),
Walk through a door that’s always open (always open)
Into a Promise never broken!

(Love will find you)
Love will find you,
And It will heal a heart that’s grieving.
(Love will find you)
It will find you,
You’ve gotta see
You’ve gotta see.

(Love will find you)
Love will find you,
When you believed you’d stopped believing.
(Love will find you)
Love will find you....

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh,

You’ll walk the pain that you’ve been holding --
Walk through a door that’s always open
Into a Promise never broken.

(Love will find (find) you.)
Love will find you,
(Love will find you) oh....
(Love will find you)
When you believed you’d stopped believing.

(Love will find you)
Oh, you’ve gotta see.
Oh, you’ve gotta see,
You must believe!

(Love will find you)
Oh, someday you’ll mend the fear.
Oh,...
You must believe (you must believe),
You must believe....
Whoo-ooh,
You must believe. Oh-oh-oh....

...His love will truly find you...

2007

2007-12-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

Q and A from Friendster ulit:

1) Where did you begin 2007?
- at home in Nueva Ecija

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
- in a relationship ;)

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
- nope, employed already

4) How did you earn your money?
- by being an MR slave...huhu! :D

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
- thank God no despite series of OTs and overnights. Tibay ko! hehe!

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
- none, mabuting mamamayan ako...hihi!

7) Where did you go on holiday?
- Baguio, my first and last for the whole year of 2007. Loser! :D

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
- I didn't even have that much money!

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
- yup, ate laiza/neil and emong/jeff, same date pa :D

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
- yes, my aunt last December 4

12) Did you travel anywhere?
- yup, Baguio for leisure and Davao for work

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
- naku, can no longer recall

15) Are you registered to vote?
- yes

16) Favorite reality tv show?
- America's Next Top Model :D

17) Where do you live now?
- in Pasig

18) Describe your birthday?
- happy because I was able to celebrate it with family and friends who I missed spending my past birthdays with, and sad because wala siya (hmmp!) and my aunt was already dying of cancer

19) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?
- get a new job ;)

20) What has been your favorite moment?
- quiet moments with God in my room

21) What's something you learned about yourself?
- that I can do it pala ;)

22) Any new additions to your family?
- wala pa. kelan kaya magkakaroon? :D

23.) What was your best month?
- December

24.) What music will you remember 2007 by?
- there's a lot eh

25) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
- hindi po ako manginginom :D

26) Made new friends?
- yes

27) New best friend?
- it has always been JC!

28) Favorite Night out?
- can't recall

29) Favorite Movie of 07?
- none in particular

30) Favorite time-killer of 07?
- spending time alone

JoC Album Hunting

2007-12-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

Look what I've got! Jars of Clay's If I Left the Zoo album! Yey!

1999

If not for my spontaneous decision to pass by House of Praise when I was in Megamall, I won't be able to get my much-sought-for copy of this album. All the while I thought it has already run out of stock but I was really fortunate to be able to find one and mine was the last copy na daw. I also got it at a much lower price 'cause it was sale. Hihi! Plus I have my HoP membership card so I got another discount. Hehe!

I have not fully listened to the album but I already picked my favorite songs and these are Unforgetful You, No One Loves Me Like You, Sad Clown, Can't Erase It and Grace. I'm still savoring the other songs from the album.

I still have one to hunt: Redemption Songs. I don't think I'd have difficulty looking for this one.

I Want a Guy...

2007-12-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

Actually, what I want is that someone in the last sentence. Never mind the others.

Tanong at Sagot

2007-12-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

Q and A from Friendster.

1. Have you ever said, you'll never love again?
- Nope. I'm always full of hope. :D

2. Is there anything bothering u right now?
- Yes, a lot.

3. Is there something you wanna let go of?
- Admittedly, yes.

4. Do the old songs you had in your past really remind you of the memories?
- Nope, not at all.

5. How do you learn to forget?
- I pray :)

6. Is crying a sign of weakness?
- It’s a sign that you need to pour your heart out.

7. Do you always regret?
- A couple of times.

8. Do you believe that absence makes the heart grow fonder?
- Yes, as long as there is trust.

9. Do you believe that you have a guardian angel?
- I believe that I have God.

10. Do you find your ex's new gf/bf good looking?
- Huh? Kebs ko naman dun!

11. What will you do if you're stuck in the elevator with someone you don't like?
- Nothing.

12. Have you ever wanted someone but you can’t have him/her?
- Next question please

13. Have you ever said 'I love you' but you lied?
- Next question please :D

14. Would you ever want to go back in the past?
- Yes.

15. Do you really wanna please every body?
- Not everybody, only those people who are worth to please.

16. Is waiting ever okay?
- Yes, kaya lang…

17. Right now, where do you wanna be?
- in Nueva Ecija

18. When is enough, enough?
- When all you feel is pain already and you no longer grow as a person anymore

19. What are you so sick and tired of?
- sa’min na lang ni Lord yun…

20. What made you smile today?
- God’s love

21. Is looking good important?
- Yes, but feeling good is more important

22. Do you listen to love songs when you’re down?
- Yes, love songs for God (that is, Christian songs)

23. What are you thankful for?
- So many things. God’s faithfulness and grace and many more.

24. Do you believe in forever?
- Yes, as I've said, I'm full of hope. :D

25. What are your plans for the weekend?
- next weekend? Go home to Nueva Ecija! :)

26. Do you say sorry first?
- If I’m the one who has hurt the person.

27. Do you believe that married couples should still go out on a date?
- Yes, with each other :)

28. Has someone promised you something and broke it?
- I’m not sure

29. Do you want to go out of the country?
- Oo naman!

30. Has somebody given you a ring?
- Yes, nag-tarnish na. :D

At the Right Time

2007-12-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

I’ve been asked this question several times during my job interviews. It just feels a bit awkward being asked something personal or private. I honestly answer it though when they ask. And just recently, another employer threw me this question.

Employer: It’s indicated here that you are single.
Me: Yes, Ma’am.
Employer: But do you have a boyfriend?
Me: Yes, I have a boyfriend.
Employer: Do you have plans of getting married?
Me (extremely surprised): Uhm, yes, but not soon. It’s something that is really serious and something to be prepared for. Currently, I’m still not ready for it. Probably after 5 years I’ll settle down.

Whew. I was put on the spot! I never thought that would be part of the interview. :D

So, 5 years. Yes, 5 more years before a make a vow with someone, if God wills (so Mommy, there’s nothing to worry about, okay? :D ).

Why this long? Because I believe, and this is what God has been telling me, that this is enough time for Him to prepare me emotionally, spiritually and financially and to prepare also the heart of the person that He wants me to spend my life with forever. Also, God wants me to become a “complete” person when I face my “Adam” at the altar and His process of piecing me together will take time. And there’s a lot of things that He still wants me to learn that would enable me to become a worthy woman to my future lifetime partner.

Therefore, I’m not in a hurry to have those wedding bells even if people have been seriously asking me when. I don’t worry about it either. Because God makes things beautiful and perfect in His own perfect time.

Lord, would it be possible to get no extension on the timing please? :D

P.S.
Thanks to Joshua Harris and in-their-thirties-but-still-single friends for inspiring me and giving me hope. :)

Sink n' Swim

2007-12-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

Sink n' Swim
Plumb

I lost it all
You got it back
Believed in me
When I gave up on myself again

A sudden rain
Revealed your face
I knew right then
No matter where I go I'd
Have your hand to hold

We will sink and
We will swim
'Til the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
'Til there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
We will swim

I was,
A tender reed
Bent in the wind
And then the storm had passed
And you helped me stand upright again

So here we are
Nothing to lose
So take my hand
We'll jump right in
The water's warm
Its time to live

We will sink and
We will swim
'Til the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
'Til there's no more breath inside
Cause we will sink
We will swim

It doesn't rain
For nothing
It will shine
For you

We will sink
We will swim
Til' the ocean turns to sand
We will laugh
We will cry
Til' there's no more breath inside
we will sink
We will swim

The Music Of My Soul

Mother's Blooper

My Heart is Yours

Thank You, Thank You

*Argggh* Happens

Kaadikan

Delirious? The Farewell Tour

Twilight OST

3EB

Tingalingaling # 2

Lately...

Motto for 2009

Cheers!

Just Want to Say...

Dahil New Year... Part 2

Dahil New Year...

How Sweet :)

Something New

Miss ko na siya...

Missing JoC

Popcorn, Popcorn!

G

To those who remembered...

Feel Ko Lang ;)

Feel Ko Lang ;)

To my dear friend...

Kanta Muna

What I Want for My Birthday ;)

To the person who always makes me smile and laugh...

Improve Your Love Relationships

Happiness and Joy Defined

Let It Go

JoC Update!

Confusionism

Missing Plumb

He Hears Me

Bakit Ba Nakita Pa Kita?

Para Sa'Yo

A Love Song

HBD Tsong!

First Few Days of August...

My Silversmith is Watching Me

Kanta Muna Ulit

Updates, Updates!

Passion World Tour Manila

Who Am I?

Good Music

Gary Valenciano His Love The Repeat

Dear Lord

QLC

Kopi Shap Sawnds

Still

Searching For...

SonicFlood

I have an 11-year-old crush!

Here In My Life

5 Candles

UTL

...

It sings...

Thought Balloon

Len-len Tagged Me!

Para Kay Vena

Bass

Missing

Sari-Saring Kwento

The Cranberries

Dahil Badtrip Ako...

Cheers Ulit!

3 Things That Made Me So Excited Today

Cheers!

1:05 PM

Life Is...

Summer Wish

Some Random Updates

Kyu End Ey

Why Do Boys Fall in Love with Girls*

Songs Like This

Music Mode

D'yan Ka Magaling

Argggh Happens